Friday, 19 March 2010

Ooh, do that again. That felt goooood.

Once the horrendous feeling of guilt and sporadic crying episodes subside, being a little bit selfish actually feels quite good, doesn't it?

I've gone from moping around this quiet little Auckland hostel, where I could happily have stayed for the entire 4 weeks in a little solitary daze, to absolutely craving a bit of backpacker sludge.

On Monday, I wanted April. Now it's Friday and for some reason, something dawned on me when I clicked publish on yesterday's post. I realised that I want cheap drinks, boozy nights and staying up to watch the sunrise with a load of people I'll never meet again. I want the same repetitive conversations, I want free jugs of beer. I want to be tagged in awful facebook photos, I want weird reminders of what a small world it is. I want bunk beds and noisy room mates who won't let me sleep. I don't want to be held back by my non-single status, or spend the next four weeks waiting for the good bit to arrive and talking on Skype. I want to have an amazing time, put it on hold for 3 hours while I hop aboard an Emirates flight, and then continue it in Sydney with a plus-one.

If this is going to be my last four weeks on my own, possibly for months, years, who knows how long...then I need to get on it. Big style.

Or that's the plan.

Better get on a bus tomorrow morning then.

10 comments:

roseski said...

Woo woo - it's Party Jo! Enjoy!

Kirses said...

I like your style lady

The Unbearable Banishment said...

Selfishness ALWAYS feels great! Why do you think it's so popular and hard to put aside?

nottwittter said...

Yep, no point in having a pass out and not using it.

nottwittter said...

On, and it's Friday night here and Pete Tong's playing on iPlayer. Friday nights...

Ellie said...

Repeats sentiments expressed above.

theperpetualspiral said...

Party on Jo! Enjoy yourself :)

Laura Jane Williams said...

THAT'S THE SPIRIT. If there was a 'like' button on this I'd press it.

Go girl.

Please Don't Eat With Your Mouth Open said...

Roseski - WOO YEAH! I'm on it like Sonic.

Kirses - Always room for one more on the party bus...

Unbearable - Selfishness didn't feel too good at the time, but now I've had a few days to get used to the results, I kinda like it...

not twitter - Pete Tong on iPlayer eh? I'm just gutted I can't access it from NZ :(

Ellie - Done, done and done.

Perp - Have been :)

Laura - is that a Ricky Lake style 'You go giiirrrrrl' ? Please say it is.

nottwittter said...

Still haven't come up for air? Next post should be interesting.

 

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